Myopic Thoughts

We are not judges, we are not kings; yet why do we act as judicators and tyrants over other people? Why do we feel so powerful holding a person’s life in our cruel hands, when in truth we are all the same: just paupers in this temporal shanty? I hate myself for not being able to stand up to these self-righteous bastards. And I hate myself even more for emulating them, their actions, their pride, their prejudice.

Yes, there have been moments when courage steeled my recourse, and I was able to protect those who did not deserve to be maltreated with vicious bigotry; I stood up for them. Now I have become a lesser person. I let myself be swayed by small-minded people who think their intellect and reasoning are at the pinnacle of society’s standards. Your reality is not necessarily the whole world’s. And you have no right to tell me how things should be done. We are different, you must realize and respect that. I can live in discomfort; I can forget myself if it would help another find his/her soul. You may not share my principles, you may not agree with my views. That is alright – I am not asking you to. I just want you to let me be. Leave me be.

I need to go back to who I was. Before it’s too late.

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Sometimes, this side of me surfaces and I can’t help but allow it to say what it needs to say, because it IS a part of who I am. I am embracing the drama and I don’t give a damn if it’s too much for people to handle. Esto es mi vida.

Lotsa good bands yesterday, equally impressive were the dances - ethnic is back.

I was praying real hard so that Big G would help give the band full concentration and steady hands during the performance, and though there were a few minor setbacks (our stint was cut down to half the no. of songs due to time constraint, & the rhythms amp volume was accidentally set to low), we actually gave the crowd an excellent show. Since we were the last band on stage before the awarding for the winners of the Youthfest 2006 at Don Bosco Canlubang, we were pressured to ‘reawaken’ the audience, as it was already past twelve mn. We opened our act with the laid back "Akin Ka Na Lang’ by Itchyworms, to which some of the people started to sing along. I guess what really drew their attention was the last song, "Lagi Mo Na Lang Akong Dinededma" by Rocksteddy. Boy, am I SOOOO GLAD I completed my monologue part! Nailed it without any blunders! The hyped-up crowd, with their shouting and whistling, really energized me to go on.  Earlier I was worried, not so much with the lyrics (since we only had our formal practice just before the show), but  with my dwindling voice. I was afraid I’d lose it halfway the show. Man. It feels good to be on stage. :p

It’s funny how at the last moment God makes it all come together, and you laugh at yourself for being so anxious over nothing.

It was all GOOOOOOOOD. :)  YEEAAHHHH! RAKENROL HABANGBUHAY!!!